Bucket List vs. Last Wish

Bucket List vs. Last Wish

"Definition of bucket list: a list of things one has not done before but wants to do before dying." -Merriam-Webster's Collegiate Dictionary

Merry Christmas: You're Going to Die

Merry Christmas: You're Going to Die

I watched my grandmother rot, suffer, and die laying in a hospital bed as cancer devoured her body. She was in so much pain that when I touched her hand, she wrenched and would scream in agony. This was 1998. She died at the age of 66. I am now facing my own mortality.

I'm Kinda Pissed Off Right Now

I'm Kinda Pissed Off Right Now

Some people are so irritating! By some people, in this instance, I mean "me." I'm writing this article, publicly scolding myself.

Friends and Authenticity, Part I

Friends and Authenticity, Part I

Issues? I have issues. When your doctor prescribes "friends" over pharmaceuticals, it's time for some self-reflection.

Resistance and Fear

Resistance and Fear

"Remember our rule of thumb: The more scared we are of a work or calling, the more sure we can be that we have to do it. ... the degree of fear equates to the strength of Resistance. Therefore, the more fear we feel about a specific enterprise, the more certain we can be that that enterprise is important to the growth of our soul. That's why we feel so much Resistance. If it meant nothing to us, there'd be no Resistance." -Steven Pressfield

Oil Dispersion Bath Therapy

Oil Dispersion Bath Therapy

Oil Dispersion Bath Therapy is a healing and relaxing treatment that has its roots both in scientific research and in the Western esoteric movement known as Anthroposophy, founded by Rudolf Steiner in the 19th century. Having previously composed an article on this practice, in this updated version I reveal publicly for the first time the painful process that led me to one of the most beautiful experiences I've had in my lifetime.

What do you think of this idea?

What do you think of this idea?

"I have an idea to 'throw by you.'" I confess: I say this a lot. Yes, I write down my ten ideas daily, but it hit me today that I'm doing three things that greatly hinders my success in idea generation, and it's stifling - truly suffocating - my most worthy ideas. Let's work through these together and get back on track.

Getting Lost is Fun!

Getting Lost is Fun!

Most of us are carrying around years of heartbreak, disloyalty, addiction, self-doubt, a completely useless education we're still paying for, adultery, maybe some crime, and a host of other nasty stuff. Here's the good news that most people don't know about: none of it matters. It's done. It's over. Gone. All that counts is what we do next. I'm getting lost.

Practice and Resistance

Practice and Resistance

I love to read, and when it comes to my Dynamic Duo of authors, my two superheroes are Steven Pressfield and James Altucher. For me, I find a harmony in their styles. Whenever I'm in a funk, I go back to the well of their words. This morning, laying in bed, feeling like shit, James helped me discover where this shit-feeling was coming from.

The (first) time I almost died.

The (first) time I almost died.

You would think I was on a suicide mission, starting from the day I was born. I somehow put my poor, 21-year-old mother through 24+ hours of labor pains to deliver a shriveled up, 4 lbs 6 oz excuse of a baby in a small-town hospital in Indiana. I came out backwards. I almost suffocated. They called a helicopter to lifeline me to Riley Hospital for Children in Indianapolis. They baptized me, "just in case," and the doctors told my parents to, well, "make arrangements."

What the hell am I doing here?

What the hell am I doing here?

The questions begs: what the hell am I doing here? Seriously? I'm a 30-something salesman living in Indianapolis, Indiana, and I'm writing a blog about god knows what, and I hope that you will read it. Actually, I don't care if you read it. Or if anyone reads it. Why?